Typed up some stuff from the other day, making edits as I went. Then I did a terrifying thing - grabbed the first 53 pages, cleaned out the notes to myself that were still hanging around (although I actually dealt with one or two of them as I did it) and emailed them as a PDF to a friend for reading. She knows that right now I am not in a space to hear anything other than "yes, keep going" or "for the sake of the world I am telling you to put down the laptop and go work on another story idea because No" but I am still terrified.
Somehow I got myself fixated on "when I get to this point I am giving it to other people" so I have done that and I will poke a couple other people about reading the same pdf. I still don't know *why* I wanted to do that and really let us hope I don't get feedback in the next few days because it's likely to make me stop writing for a bit when I get it.